Thank you but I am sadly used to it.
I get it. It can plague your mind sometimes, when you realize certain harsh realities about yourself, your life, and how, and where it's going. Sometimes you have no choice but to face it, sometimes you have to fight it. I have a pinched nerve in my back that I got in a motorcycle wreck, and it's always been twitchy, comes and goes. Now, it seems to have been hang out on a permanent basis, and what's really fucked is, there's a spot on my back, that itches, but when I drag a back scratcher across it, it makes the itch go away, but I can't actually feel the scratcher. Deep in that spot, it feels like a red hot roofing nail is in my back stabbing me. It's quite maddening, I assure you.