I have decided to become homeless

[Legzman]

I've been damn close to being homeless in the past. All I can say is never give up the fight.

 

[superfly2]

You're making your own problems and you are aware of it. You know what the right thing to do is but you are not doing it. Sounds like you are just being a child and need to take responsibility for yourself.
Like ChefChiTown said: "Grow the fuck up and deal with it."
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[broderic_randal]

All the more reason to stop hurting yourself. Nobody wants to be around a person who is going to be a cry baby that expects people to feel bad for them. Cutting yourself isn't going to make new people care about you dude...it's just going to upset the people who care about you already.

it scares people

Try thinking of your mother for once. Think about what your childish actions are doing to her. You're putting her through hell, crushing her emotionally, draining her mentally and exhausting her physically...yet, you sit here and want people to cater to your feelings, even though you obviously have no regard for anybody elses, especially your own mother's.

i am not going to make myself feel like shit just so my mother is happy, i did that for 20 years of my life

Your mother isn't going to love you more just because you cut yourself like an immature high school girl. She loves you whether you cut yourself or not. Just because she doesn't physically say "I love you" every 10 minutes doesn't mean that she hates you.

i dont understand how she can still love me, because i have put her through so much shit in the last few years

Not hearing "I love you" enough is a pretty stupid reason to cut yourself and want to die, and you know it.

that is not the only reason that i cut myself, there is a plethora of more

well women aren't attracted to a guy that doesn't give a fuck about himself, that's for sure. there are a lot of things that you don't have any control over, I get that, but Chef is right when he says there are things that you do have control over that you can change for the better.

such as...?

tell your doctors that your pills aren't working. if he doesn't listen to you, go to another doctor.

do you realize how hard it is two get an appointment with a doctor, my doctor is booking two moths away from now. i went to the walk ion clinic and the wait was going to be three hours

you can stop excessively drinking, it makes you unhealthy and emotionally unbalanced. if you can't stop on your own there are programs that will help you and not all of them are about God if you don't want that.

where? i dont know where to start. what i would love to go to is a pornaholic addiction place

try to eat better and exercise. this is the simplest and most important thing that you can do. put on some headphones and walk around the block. after a while, when you start to get in better shape, run around the block. This will make you feel better on every level. eventually you can go to the gym, which is a great way to meet people.

i cant make it around the block without excessively sweating

 

[Magnet]

First off dont give up, you will make it. Just have to keep pressing on and working hard.

Here are some things you can do that are FREE:

Seriously, you have no money-how do you afford cigs and beer? Quit that shit and start drinking water.

You said on your days off you dont leave the apartment and that you are over weight? So go on a couple walks a day. Go outside in the sunshine, get some fresh air, and you will feel better.

Find a support group in your town. You can meet people, and have people to talk to.

Once you stop drinking and smoking I bet you would have enough money for your bills

 

[Will E Worm]

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I hate my job, I do not like a lot of the people that I work with and the company that I work for is screwing me over by not paying for any benefits and by not paying me very much. Every so often there is a chance that I will be able to get a pay raise, but my fucking boss is so hard on me that I did not get the raise.

Just sue him for discrimination. As you said you're overweight.
That's all you need to sue him.

If an old clumsy woman can spill coffee on herself and win, so can you.

 

[RealMenSwallow]

Deciding to be homeless is like deciding to win the lottery. There's nothing you can do to help your odds at the end of the day, you either get lucky or you don't.

 

[CRASHnBURN]

is this real?

 

[calpoon]

So the thread starter wants to sit around and do nothing and wait for the problems to solve themselves. At least he's smart enough to understand that homelessness is the aspiration. It was nice knowing you.

 

[BlueBalls]

Good luck with that :hatsoff:




Well......what else was I really supposed to say? Huh!?!

 

[thanksimout]

Good luck with that :hatsoff:




Well......what else was I really supposed to say? Huh!?!

How about....


Stop feeling sorry for your self ?

 

[BlueBalls]

How about....


Stop feeling sorry for your self ?

Nah, not my style :hatsoff: But thanks for the advice :thumbsup:

 

[Friday on my mind]

Just sue him for discrimination. As you said you're overweight.
That's all you need to sue him.

If an old clumsy woman can spill coffee on herself and win, so can you.

If due to his mental problems he can get certified he is disabled he might be able to make a claim based on that but the odds of success are slim.But suing due to discrimination based on being overweight is a non-starter.There is no protection in law against such discrimination.And I have to say this reference to I guess the famous McDonalds hot coffee case as some sort of an example of a trivial lawsuit is again not really very accurate.If you go do the research you would learn McDonalds had been warned by govt officials repeatedly before that case about their practice of "super heating" their coffee so that they always were serving it hot.They ignored the warnings and thats why the women was able to get an award against them based on their negligence.You haven't heard of any more such cases have you? Thats because the award was an effective means of getting McDonalds attention and they changed the temp they heat the coffee too.Thats what such lawsuits and awards are all about.Obviously just warning them was not working hitting them in their pocket books did work.

 

[Baill Inneraora]

Where do you live now? is it at least warm? Is the Y an option?

 

[Marlo Manson]

I was once in your position, trust me being homeless is nothing too covet or pursue! no matter what you do, you have to avoid the thought of homelessness! if you don't want too die, then don't plan on being homeless, if you have too do something stupid too get into jail or some kind of mental facility where they can tend too and take care of your medical problems and relieve you of your having too work that would ease your desperation for a while until you figure out what you can do too help yourself!!

Not the greatest idea but its an alternative / option of you wanting too be homeless! If your homeless it would be alot more terrifying then being in jail! trust me, I KNOW, you can't trust anybody on the street!!

In addition too your lack of protection from the elements and predators who will victimize you, you'll have no meds which = depression, anxiety, lonliness, paranoia, hopelessness, lack of food and hygiene, lack of clothes, always dirty!! hell you won't even have porn too fall back on too pleasure yourself!!

I am sure your family can help you in some kind of way?? You think life is hard and not worth the grind of making yours and dealing with shit that life has too offer??

Wait til you realize how fucked up being homeless is!!! I know life is hard no doubt, but when you don't fight the fight its gonna haunt you forever and if you let your problems beat you and they break your manhood you will succumb too those obstacles you didn't fight hard or long enough too overcome your roadblocks and setbacks!!

Because truthfully you can find a new job, you can get the proper medical care, you can get the proper meds, you can be optimistic, you can have hope, you can prove too the people who care about you that you wanna change your life for the better and they will take notice that you've changed your ways and your willing too fight for what you want and need!!

Just the mere fact that you posted what you did, means your looking for advice, comfort, alternative options, idea's, strategies, inspiration, and sympathy!! you have too want help and want too change in order for it too happen, if you continue too feel sorry for yourself and let your problems defeat you then your giving up on yourself and NOBODY can help you then!! :thumbsup::hatsoff:

 

[ChefChiTown]

it scares people

No shit.

This is exactly why I say that you WANT to feel like shit. You acknowledge that your cutting and your suicidal lifestyle scares people. You also claim that you want people to love you. You can't have both dude. Stop the fucking cutting because it's scaring people away from you. Put down the sharp objects and let people come to you. It's not that hard to figure out.

It seems that you're one of these kids who thinks that a life full of gloom and sorrow is fucking cool. No, it's not. Grow up. Cutting yourself is fucking stupid and far from cool. Being sad and mopey all the time is fucking stupid and far from cool. Stop trying to glorify all of this negativity in your life and grow up.

i am not going to make myself feel like shit just so my mother is happy, i did that for 20 years of my life

Do you realize how much bullshit your mom has willingly gone through during your life, just so you could be safe, sound and happy? Do you realize how much she has sacrificed for your happiness? Do you realize that your mother has given up gigantic portions of her life and her happiness in order to give you a future? Quit being so fucking selfish. The least you could do is put down the knives, pick yourself up and get your ass headed in the right direction.

i dont understand how she can still love me, because i have put her through so much shit in the last few years

Because she's your mom. I've done shit that hurt my mom before, but she still loves me. She's my MOM. The same goes for you and your mom.

that is not the only reason that i cut myself, there is a plethora of more

The only reason you cut yourself is because it's your way of crying out for help. No, it doesn't feel good, so stop acting like it does. No, it doesn't help, so stop acting like it does. You're too scared and too embarassed to ask somebody for help...that is why you cut yourself, because it gets you the attention you need. Once again...suck it up, be a man for just a moment and ask somebody for help. Trust me, if you ask for help, you'll get it.

 

[maildude]

First off, 5'10" and 210 isn't that big. That's close to my size and I'm not fat.
Second, chill out and work on that job hunting. If you find something you like to do it will work wonders on your self esteem, and the rest will fall into place.

 

[loveakirayui]

What is up with people cutting themselves? Why is it so popular? I will admit I have been depressed for a long period of time in my life and I maybe still am, but I never really contemplated cutting myself. Believe me I have had dark times in my life much like anyone. Mine lasted for over a year. Eventually I start growing out of my depression and still trying to totally get past it. You just have realize nothing last forever and move on. Your life may suck now but that doesnt mean it will suck forever. You just gotta keep up hope for a brighter day and try to get there.

 

[broderic_randal]

is this real?

Yes this thread is for real. I am for real going to become homeless

Good luck with that :hatsoff:




Well......what else was I really supposed to say? Huh!?!

You could tell me that everything will be ok and that becoming homeless s the most stupid idiotic idea ever

How about....


Stop feeling sorry for your self ?

that nice to say, but like i said to the others that typed it, i can't, its part of my illness that stops me from doing so

If due to his mental problems he can get certified he is disabled he might be able to make a claim based on that but the odds of success are slim.But suing due to discrimination based on being overweight is a non-starter.There is no protection in law against such discrimination.And I have to say this reference to I guess the famous McDonalds hot coffee case as some sort of an example of a trivial lawsuit is again not really very accurate.If you go do the research you would learn McDonalds had been warned by govt officials repeatedly before that case about their practice of "super heating" their coffee so that they always were serving it hot.They ignored the warnings and thats why the women was able to get an award against them based on their negligence.
You haven't heard of any more such cases have you? Thats because the award was an effective means of getting McDonalds attention and they changed the temp they heat the coffee too.Thats what such lawsuits and awards are all about.Obviously just warning them was not working hitting them in their pocket books did work.

this reminds me of the Seinfeld episode where Kramer takes a coffee into the movie theatre and spills it on himself and then files a lawsuit against the people that gave him the really hot coffee

No shit.

This is exactly why I say that you WANT to feel like shit. You acknowledge that your cutting and your suicidal lifestyle scares people. You also claim that you want people to love you. You can't have both dude. Stop the fucking cutting because it's scaring people away from you. Put down the sharp objects and let people come to you. It's not that hard to figure out.

either way it is not going to work out. if i cut it really freaks out and disgusts people, but if i do not cut and not give myself that release i get really anxious and uptight and simple things make me explode and i get really angry. so basically i have to cut in the privacy of my bedroom when people are not around and i always have tocover up with long sleeved shirts and pants

It seems that you're one of these kids who thinks that a life full of gloom and sorrow is fucking cool. No, it's not. Grow up. Cutting yourself is fucking stupid and far from cool. Being sad and mopey all the time is fucking stupid and far from cool. Stop trying to glorify all of this negativity in your life and grow up.

haha i am not a kid, i am almost 30 years old, dude

Do you realize how much bullshit your mom has willingly gone through during your life, just so you could be safe, sound and happy? Do you realize how much she has sacrificed for your happiness? Do you realize that your mother has given up gigantic portions of her life and her happiness in order to give you a future? Quit being so fucking selfish. The least you could do is put down the knives, pick yourself up and get your ass headed in the right direction.

if you knew my mother well, you wouldn't be saying this

Because she's your mom. I've done shit that hurt my mom before, but she still loves me. She's my MOM. The same goes for you and your mom.

i am damn sure my mother and father only love me because they feel they are obligated to do so

You're too scared and too embarassed to ask somebody for help

Bingo, you just hit the nail on the head. i have tried to talk to 3 councillors before and it is a waist of my time, it didnt just work with any of them. the psychiatrist was fine. the thin is that the only place that has people i can talk to that are decent and that is covered by the medical coverage is so far away. I hated going to see them because ifmy appointment was at 1pm i had to leave my place at 10 in the morning and catch three buses to get there and then it was three hours to get home after the meeting was over

so for a one hour meeting i spent six hours of treavel to get there on six buses so seven hours of my day was shot. it was almost as if i had gone to a full days work and worked for zero dollars an hour

What is up with people cutting themselves? Why is it so popular? I will admit I have been depressed for a long period of time in my life and I maybe still am, but I never really contemplated cutting myself. Believe me I have had dark times in my life much like anyone. Mine lasted for over a year. Eventually I start growing out of my depression and still trying to totally get past it. You just have realize nothing last forever and move on. Your life may suck now but that doesnt mean it will suck forever. You just gotta keep up hope for a brighter day and try to get there.

my doctor said that he expects me to be on my medications for the rest of my life

 

[Dawn]

First off, 5'10" and 210 isn't that big. That's close to my size and I'm not fat.Second, chill out and work on that job hunting. If you find something you like to do it will work wonders on your self esteem, and the rest will fall into place.

It's quite my opinion as well.

Medication too.
Feeling emtionnally the way you do might be comming from your illness. If you can feel better, you will be able to focus on your other problems.

Just don't give up.
Time is often the great healer when we are patient (i know, its not easy).

Becoming homeless will not solve any problems but will add another one - you said you wanted to reach the bottom, and it's the best way for that.

 

[nothingandless]

to be honest, i've had the same thoughts in the past. stop feeling sorry for yourself, it gets you nowhere. i was also recently in a mental hospital for suicidality and substance abuse. work through it. if medication helps, use it. go find another job if you hate this one so much. stop drinking so much, 10 beers isn't that much, but everybody is different.
believe me, sleeping on the street sucks. wait till you get the shit kicked out of you for no reason, police harrassing you while you try to sleep, the freezing rain with no shelter, etc.
its not an option.

good luck with it, whatever.