lurkingdirk - Closed account

[wdoall]

After a couple of months of back and forth fighting with Mariah I came to realize that her opinions while out there are interesting to read. To be honest, when I joined this board I didn't even realize that some well known porn chicks participated here on quite this level.

I have always liked people with a little bit of fire in them even if I disagreed with them. She isn't here posting pics of herself wearing a thong bikini all the time, she is making food and calling people creative names like "douche drinker and cum garglers" I'm sorry but after a while that kind of shit makes me laugh. Something else that is apparent, is that her participation here draws responses. Even those that hate her can't resist reading what she has posted when they see her little pink name as the last post on a particular thread.

When she started to get under my skin I stepped back and thought about it for a moment and realized that she started in the porn business when she was a young mom and in her late teens. That had to be tough. It also had to affect her world view because I am sure that every day in the porn biz is a crap shoot. Now she is trying to live a normal life away from all that. Yeah she does a lot of name dropping but I don't doubt for a moment that she really does know these people she talks about. I guess the biggest thing that impresses me is that she learned everything on her own. I deal with young women attorneys fresh out of law school every week that don't know half the shit Mariah does.

Will there be another incident when Mariah says something that will make me want to yank a knot in her ass? You betcha, especially if I had a bad day at work or something but overall it is refreshing to read the opinions of a "porn bitch"lol that isn't only sticking her ass up on the air all the time but talking about what is happening in the world.

Great post BC

 

[Jack Davenport]

Nah Mariah, I'm not ready to cross over to the dark side yet. We will never agree on religion. Maybe some things political there is some common ground. I have a bit of a reputation of being a nasty bastard around town myself and it gets me a lot of work.

I interact with so many deal making pussies everyday that I usually only respond positively to other dickheads like myself.

 

[wdoall]

For me all child rapists should be jailed and fried on the electric chair

A more true statement has never been made

 

[Mariahxxx]

well never say never. sometimes there is an epiphany that brings you to god and I would imagine there are epiphanies that make you realize what a crock of shit you have been investing in all this time.

One day perhaps your epiphany will come and you'll realize that as smart as you are, you've been hoodwinked your entire life into believing in something that was intended to be used to control the masses and explain the things they had not discovered yet.

The next time a baby is born with AIDS or an elderly person sits in a home forgotten by everyone they know and love, maybe your god will will show up and provide some relief to those that are suffering.

 

[Jack Davenport]

well never say never. sometimes there is an epiphany that brings you to god and I would imagine there are epiphanies that make you realize what a crock of shit you have been investing in all this time.

One day perhaps your epiphany will come and you'll realize that as smart as you are, you've been hoodwinked your entire life into believing in something that was intended to be used to control the masses and explain the things they had not discovered yet.

The next time a baby is born with AIDS or an elderly person sits in a home forgotten by everyone they know and love, maybe your god will will show up and provide some relief to those that are suffering.

I can't imagine that no more than you can imagine yourself teaching a Sunday school class or singing in the choir.

 

[Rey C.]

And this challenge of knowing or not knowing someone you've never met compared to someone you have is stupid. You surely cannot seriously believe that you could know someone on a message board that you've never met as opposed to someone that you have?

your comment "They don't want to drive people away. They don't want to get punched. They don't want to be spat on. Here they don't have to worry about that. Here they're free to be themselves with no real consequences. They are free to act within their (lack) of conscience, to display their innermost thoughts to the world without worry. They can proverbially "let it all hang out." what that means is that they can run their mouths and act tough when they really aren't. They can pretend to be a bad ass when they are really scared of their own shadow. They can threaten without having to back it up. that's not being themselves, that's being someone they wish they were. wake the fuck up dude.

Ok let's compare: you've had 100 inter-actions on the message board with person X compare it to 50 inter-actions IN PERSON with person Y who would you get a better feel for as a person? Of course the one who's eyes you have looked into, heard their voice, seen their facial expressions and body language.

If you say person X then maybe you're some sort of anti-social anomaly that could only handle online inter-action. I guess it's normal you wouldn't see it any other way.

Time for cafe ole and chocolatine

It all depends on the people involved and the nature of the interaction. What I'm saying is that over the course of time and many posts, you can certainly get a general idea of what someone is like in a broad sense. You can get a basic idea of their personality and level of intelligence. Well enough to leave your kids with them? No, that level of trust goes much, much deeper. But I never suggested that and I don't think anyone else did either. Just meeting someone 50 times, 100 times or 1000 times, in itself, wouldn't convince me to leave my kids with them either (if I had kids, that is). And of course meeting someone gives the added benefit of being able to look into their eyes and *try* to read their body language. But like I said in the beginning, it really depends on the people involved and the nature of the interaction. What life and experience have taught me is to not place a lot of trust in anyone at first glance, whether I have met them or not. Someone I've now known for about 8 months has very recently proven that he is completely untrustworthy. But looking in his eyes didn't tell me that. I try to judge people and situations based on objective data (that's basically what I'm paid to do), not solely on their words. But based solely on words, can I get a basic read on someone's temperament and personality? It gives a good starting point in many cases. Not here, but on other message boards, I have met quite a few of the people I've interacted with. And they tended to be (personality wise) pretty much as they were on the internet. Now, if someone is a polished, talented con, he/she can hide it on the internet... and he/she can hide it in real life too. I've just "known" too many people over the years, mostly through work, who I had no idea that they were drug addicts, beat their wives or kids, abused their parents, were thieves, cheated on their spouses (when I believed them to be faithful to their marriages) or were just blatant liars. I'm in a situation right now with someone who has known me since I was a baby, someone who would have become my "mother" had my parents died when I was a child, and because there is a lot of money at stake, this person is now showing her true colors... and not in a good way. See, it turns out that I didn't really know her afterall... and I've looked in her eyes since I was big enough to sit up on my own. Now, I consider her my mortal enemy... but I don't show it. She has no idea of the level of hate I now have for her. She will only know that I knew what she was up to when we get to the end of this deal and I have fucked her six ways from Sunday. And at that point, she will know me. Even looking at myself, I'm able to express (true) political views here that I don't have the luxury of expressing in public. Because of the nature of my profession, I'm not in a position that I can have any sort of controversial statements attached to my name. I have a folder full of "letters to the editor" that I'd love to send to various local newspapers. But I don't feel like having a conference with corporate HR the day after I send even one. So I appreciate that the anonymity of this board allows me to freely express those thoughts and beliefs. Who am I really... in real life? :dunno: Like most people, to varying degrees, I am a man of the moment. Depending on the situation, I will show you what I feel you need to see and tell you what I feel you need to know... nothing more, nothing less. In large organizations or corporations, you either learn to play the political game or you get stepped on. And I'm not into being stepped on. I've found that it's better to be the stepper than the stepee.

Most of us are just here for casual conversation and what not. I don't need to see anybody's psych report, background check or credit score. Most of us will never meet each other. But if I imagine who I would or would not sit down and have a beer with, I believe (based on observation and casual conversation) that I'd be good with having a beer with this person known as Lurkingdirk. And there are others that I'd be OK sitting down with for a drink. And yeah, there are one or two that it probably wouldn't be a good idea to ply me with alcohol and put me in the same room with them. There are a couple that (at their core) probably really are the shit-asses that they play up even more here.

Deputy Fife: Sir, what exactly happened to this man?!
Drunk me: Well, Occifer, I don't rightly know. See, that feller was layin' on the floor with his teeth spread out around his head when I got here. I think he's just drunk and he fell down and hit his head. :dunno:

A double espresso for me. I have some goat milk in the fridge that should soften it up a bit. :hatsoff:

 

[wdoall]

well everybody knows with enough money you can buy the legal system lol

 

[Jack Davenport]

I had a friend of 25 years and would have trusted him with my life. He became a full blown alcoholic and was spending all of his money on escorts and one in particular was a pornstar and he spent 5000 bucks a month on her alone.

I was always having to field telephone calls for him from creditors and even loaned him 15000 dollars to try and help him get his life straight after he lost his car and his home.

I let him move into my place for a few weeks and he stole personal items from my home and pawned them. I finally reached a point that I didn't want to have him prosecuted but threatened to whip his ass. You can know people well in person and still not know them or what kind of demons they have that will rear it's ugly head down the road.

 

[Rey C.]

I had a friend of 25 years and would have trusted him with my life. He became a full blown alcoholic and was spending all of his money on escorts and one in particular was a pornstar and he spent 5000 bucks a month on her alone.

I was always having to field telephone calls for him from creditors and even loaned him 15000 dollars to try and help him get his life straight after he lost his car and his home.

I let him move into my place for a few weeks and he stole personal items from my home and pawned them. I finally reached a point that I didn't want to have him prosecuted but threatened to whip his ass. You can know people well in person and still not know them or what kind of demons they have that will rear it's ugly head down the road.

Yep, as we move through life, we often (sadly) find that we don't really know many of the people we think we know.

I had a choice of The Kinks Yo-Yo or Billy Joel here. Went with Christie B's ex.

Just a song, but there's a hell of a lot of truth in that, no?

 

[Jack Davenport]

Yep. Good choice. The first time I ever heard Billy Joel I was a kid and the song was Piano Man.

Billy has his own demons he is dealing with too. And damn he has aged. I mean far beyond the way he should have.

 

[Rey C.]

Same here. Piano Man (the album and the sing) was a masterpiece. In fact, since I haven't listened to the whole thing in years, I believe I'll go download it from iTunes today. :thumbsup: Any excuse to stay off that lawnmower!

I'm guessing that Billy thought that he knew Christie (while she was conducting a "friendship" with Indy 500 winner Danny Sullivan) and she probably thought she knew him (while he was drowning his sorrows in a bottle). He does look rough these days. And she still looks better than 99.9% of the women half her age. But gorgeous as she is, the way I see her, once a cheat, always a cheat. What her subsequent husband did to her was just karma coming to kick her in the ass, IMO. Nobody knows nobody... not really.

 

[alexpnz]

Weeeeeeeeeee!

Another thread full of Internet Gasbags, swirling off into "Off Topic Oblivion".

 

[Rey C.]

Weeeeeeeeeee!

Another thread full of Internet Gasbags, swirling off into "Off Topic Oblivion".

Say, handsome... what are you wearing right now?

 

[Jack Davenport]

Weeeeeeeeeee!

Another thread full of Internet Gasbags, swirling off into "Off Topic Oblivion".

Summer is coming to a close.. go work on that tan.

 

[Mayhem]

Weeeeeeeeeee!

Another thread full of Internet Gasbags, swirling off into "Off Topic Oblivion".

I was just about to say that for all the posts wishing for Dirks return, he's probably wading through this thread and being pretty fuckin' glad he's not in it.

 

[alexpnz]

I was just about to say that for all the posts wishing for Dirks return, he's probably wading through this thread and being pretty fuckin' glad he's not in it.

He probably got to one of those Rey C or Happy Happy Joy Joy long-winded diatribes and tapped out.

 

[Jack Davenport]

I was just about to say that for all the posts wishing for Dirks return, he's probably wading through this thread and being pretty fuckin' glad he's not in it.

That's the way dirk would have wanted it.

 

[Shifty]

Mariah, if this is your stance on the subject, then why do you constantly post about your personal life? After all, to you we're all person X.

I'm not person X. You have seen my videos. You have heard my voice. Many have done video chat with me over the years. Many have met me in person. Petra and Roald have had drinks with me and hung out for a night in Amsterdam. I have met a lot of fans at events that I have hosted. I did a contest dinner with mariah where I flew a winner to NYC and provided their hotel and dinner with me at Momofuku Noodle Bar 5 different times. I'm established and many people have met me.

Until I have met you and spent time with you, I cannot determine whether you are a good guy or not. I can read what you write and think you are smart, or stupid, or opinionated and knowledgeable or not, but can I determine what type of person you are and decide if I'd trust you with my child? Fuck no.

Wait, what?

 

[STDiva]

Ya, but why male models?

 

[georges]

Weeeeeeeeeee!

Another thread full of Internet Gasbags, swirling off into "Off Topic Oblivion".

Come on, stop being such a boring and dull moralist. You are certainly in the need to fuck an ashley dupree clone, so go take some money and go buttfuck some bitch of her style