I hold no moral judgement to this board or anybody on here. I'm saying this and posting it here for myself.
For many years I've been on this board and "curating" if you will, a few of my favorite threads here. But that is going to stop today and this will be my last post.
It is time for me to finally admit in public that I am a pornography addict, and I don't mean it in a good, fun way but in a "my life is ruined" kind of way. I've been this way since I was a teenager but once the internet hit it really accelerated.
I have conquered many addictions in my life, from cocaine, to cigarettes and I will tell you something: porn is the hardest thing to kick. It's a a mind virus. And if you've passed the point of no return (as I have), then there comes a point where you have to either kick it or lose everything.
Why?
Eventually, if you're using porn addictively, the following things will happen:
* you won't be able to relate to your partner, spouse, mate on any intimate level - and they will know it. My wife can only be described in one word: MILF. And for a time, she would indulge me in the types of things I am into on these boards. But eventually that stopped. She got sick of being objectified. She complained that's all I ever want to do. It made her feel devalued and cheapened and that's not how you're supposed to make your wife feel.
* it will take over your life, the number of hours in the day you lose to surfing porn will escalate and you will not be able to control it. My career has suffered. I used to be a rising star in my firm, but I'm off the promotion track because "my productivity has plummeted". I know why, and it's probably not as much of a secret around the shop as I delude myself into thinking.
* eventually, you will develop a sexual dysfunction such as premature ejaculation or impotence, imagine - you finally get some chick you fap to in these forums into a situation you've been craving your entire life and you either can't get it up or you blow so soon she laffs at you.
* it eats into your brain. You sexualize everything, every situation. I'm not some "new age" woowoo but it really does put out on honest-to-god "vibe" and you begin to exude it. In other words, you turn into a creep whether you know it or not.
* your self-esteem falls into the toilet because every morning you promise yourself you're not going to surf porn and get some shit done and by noon you've got some many tabs open in your browser your computer grinds to a halt. You have to leave *now* to pick up your kids from school and you can't... just one more click, one more thread, one more forum...and you're late again. Another commitment blown, another letdown.
I've tried to kick many times in the past, I've had other aliases on this board, I figure now I have to do something with some finality to it, so I can't come slinking back when the going gets tough.
So good bye. I don't begrudge anybody here. If you can look at hardcore pictures and not let it take over your life I'm happy for you. I can't, so it has to stop.
I'll leave you with one thought, somebody told me this back when I was a cokehead and it stuck with me: if you ever wonder if you have an addiction problem to (insert here: booze, coke, cigs, porn, aluminum foil) then the answer is "yes". Because people who can indulge in those things, people who are normal never ask themselves that question. Once you ask yourself that question it means you have a problem. The most undying wish of the addict is that he could partake in whatever monkey is on his back like "normal" people.
When I heard that it really bothered me because I was consumed with that desire. I still am.
I've kicked enough things in my life (and hit bottom enough times) to know when I'm at a crossroads and I have to take the correct path now.
IF YOU ARE YOUNG - and just starting your fascination with this stuff I will tell you something: this is a dead end road. You are far more likely to have a great, healthy hot sex life by staying away from this shit. If you're lonely, shy, find it hard to meet women I can save you a lifetime of trouble, this is what you do:
1) Learn how to dress.
2) Learn how to dance.
3) Learn how to cook.
And the magic bullet:
4) Get a cute dog.
You will have hot and cold running women through your life forever. And it will be the real deal. Not this fake mind wrecking illusion.
I wish you all well.
P.S for another take on porn addiction, one that might leave a smile on your face, see this:
http://www.theonion.com/blogpost/time-flies-when-youre-feeding-an-addiction-to-inte-33586
For many years I've been on this board and "curating" if you will, a few of my favorite threads here. But that is going to stop today and this will be my last post.
It is time for me to finally admit in public that I am a pornography addict, and I don't mean it in a good, fun way but in a "my life is ruined" kind of way. I've been this way since I was a teenager but once the internet hit it really accelerated.
I have conquered many addictions in my life, from cocaine, to cigarettes and I will tell you something: porn is the hardest thing to kick. It's a a mind virus. And if you've passed the point of no return (as I have), then there comes a point where you have to either kick it or lose everything.
Why?
Eventually, if you're using porn addictively, the following things will happen:
* you won't be able to relate to your partner, spouse, mate on any intimate level - and they will know it. My wife can only be described in one word: MILF. And for a time, she would indulge me in the types of things I am into on these boards. But eventually that stopped. She got sick of being objectified. She complained that's all I ever want to do. It made her feel devalued and cheapened and that's not how you're supposed to make your wife feel.
* it will take over your life, the number of hours in the day you lose to surfing porn will escalate and you will not be able to control it. My career has suffered. I used to be a rising star in my firm, but I'm off the promotion track because "my productivity has plummeted". I know why, and it's probably not as much of a secret around the shop as I delude myself into thinking.
* eventually, you will develop a sexual dysfunction such as premature ejaculation or impotence, imagine - you finally get some chick you fap to in these forums into a situation you've been craving your entire life and you either can't get it up or you blow so soon she laffs at you.
* it eats into your brain. You sexualize everything, every situation. I'm not some "new age" woowoo but it really does put out on honest-to-god "vibe" and you begin to exude it. In other words, you turn into a creep whether you know it or not.
* your self-esteem falls into the toilet because every morning you promise yourself you're not going to surf porn and get some shit done and by noon you've got some many tabs open in your browser your computer grinds to a halt. You have to leave *now* to pick up your kids from school and you can't... just one more click, one more thread, one more forum...and you're late again. Another commitment blown, another letdown.
I've tried to kick many times in the past, I've had other aliases on this board, I figure now I have to do something with some finality to it, so I can't come slinking back when the going gets tough.
So good bye. I don't begrudge anybody here. If you can look at hardcore pictures and not let it take over your life I'm happy for you. I can't, so it has to stop.
I'll leave you with one thought, somebody told me this back when I was a cokehead and it stuck with me: if you ever wonder if you have an addiction problem to (insert here: booze, coke, cigs, porn, aluminum foil) then the answer is "yes". Because people who can indulge in those things, people who are normal never ask themselves that question. Once you ask yourself that question it means you have a problem. The most undying wish of the addict is that he could partake in whatever monkey is on his back like "normal" people.
When I heard that it really bothered me because I was consumed with that desire. I still am.
I've kicked enough things in my life (and hit bottom enough times) to know when I'm at a crossroads and I have to take the correct path now.
IF YOU ARE YOUNG - and just starting your fascination with this stuff I will tell you something: this is a dead end road. You are far more likely to have a great, healthy hot sex life by staying away from this shit. If you're lonely, shy, find it hard to meet women I can save you a lifetime of trouble, this is what you do:
1) Learn how to dress.
2) Learn how to dance.
3) Learn how to cook.
And the magic bullet:
4) Get a cute dog.
You will have hot and cold running women through your life forever. And it will be the real deal. Not this fake mind wrecking illusion.
I wish you all well.
P.S for another take on porn addiction, one that might leave a smile on your face, see this:
http://www.theonion.com/blogpost/time-flies-when-youre-feeding-an-addiction-to-inte-33586
