DOA and Yankeefan, that's along the lines of what I've been thinking after this encounter, that perhaps it'll be different with someone I'm in love with and can live dangerously with. Unfortunately, I don't have such a person in my life right now, and the desire for sex alone is not enough to move me to start hunting for a life partner and all the complications that it brings. I guess that's why I sort of lack the desire to do an encounter like this again, either with an escort or some casual hookup, because even if it's fun, I fear it will still lack something that it would have with someone I love.
Edit: and it's expensive, lol
Edit: and it's expensive, lol