I had a lot of girls in these years, but I never had sex with a virgin. I'm not that kind of men that would do it only to be satisfied to take for first the virginity of a girl, but I'd love to do it because I have a kind of fetish for tight pussies, and also because I want to make something special both for me and for the girl. I blame myself for being such a loser in my teens with girls. Now that I'm dating a sweet 18 yo, this is becoming a problem...that fucking obsession about tight pussies make me thing that when she was a virgin she was a lot tighter, even if sex with her is the best I ever had in my life and her pussy is already pretty tight. Also, I have another fetish about big pussy lips, but I think that will remain in my porn folder. Actually, I think a lot about deflorating a girl, and even fucking while her hymen is bleeding turns me on ( sorry if I'm a sick fuck for this ). I know these are common fantasies, but because of these I can't full enjoy my sexual life. Should I see an expert?