They never made me feel worthless. They always said I was smart and I'd do well in anything I tried, if I just applied myself. And they were right, but I found very little that interested me enough to pursue long enough and apply myself at to become successful!
I managed to get an associates degree in auto tech. That took 4 years when it should have only taken 2 as I fucked off even more in college! Now I don't even work on cars for a living anymore as it got to the point I didn't like it anymore. Now I fear I'm destined to failure! I've taken adderal for this and it does help, I find I clean the fuck out of anything in site when I'm on it though! So I keep a few pills around for house work, comes in real handy!
That sounds a little like an Avoidant Personality Disorder, friend, which I used to have. Of course, the personality disordered: tend to think that they are against the world, and it is just them: that are living that way. Tragically, many are.
I can sort of see, through the ephemeral veneer of civilization, the probable evolutionary purposes of these (first mentioned), 'disorders.' Nature cares about your survival, not if you end up, 'looking stupid,' in front of other humans for a few years, or if you embarrass yourself in front of them.
