Hi Dev."Milfsoup".CHanged my hair for 3 reasons..My band broke up so I was finally able to change my look,Blondes make wayy more $ at the strip clubs,I was tired of being a goth girl/attracting young broke ass non committin,goth boys.
Jambum,I see your point very much.She knows how I feel.She knows I am still in the industry as a stripper,She also knows I am not religious and I dont go to church.I believe in GOD,but I also cast spells everyday.Good ones,Even,"Dear Universe,if you believe____ should be punished for the sin they committed to me,or others.I leave that into your hands." See,than it doesn't come back to me.
She has been very sweet to me,and the package was very endearing.I can see your point though.But she is not going to mention the statistics of other sources on her site,ya know.As far as the positive replies only,I do have a hard time w that.I have had a post deleted bcause it was negative.I think she just wants to put positive energy out there.I appreciate that.But for me,most the time..The glass is half empty.
I bad mouth the industry all the time.WHy didnt I get out? Bcause I would go on 1 shoot,have a positive experience..work w good people.ANd then get sent out to another shoot and be treated like shit.You never know what you are going to get.I only bad mouth the ppl in the biz that pissed me off.ALso,Getting paid $800 a vid mostly,and doin 26 porn films over 7 yrs,taking 2 years off..Lets just say,I make way more $ as a stripper.It was spending $ for me.It def. didnt pay my bills.Not after $120-$150 blood tests every 30 days,sometimes travel,etc.
I am not AGAINST the industry.I am fine w ppl buying/watching porn,I am fine w other ppl acting in porn.I just don't want to do it anymore.Been 2 yrs and 2 months.As far as,"Why dont they get out"? Drug problems,Pimps that threaten their lives if they leave,girls shipped in from other countries and having their passport taken away/being threatened to authorities that they r in USA illegally,low self esteem,many of the girls have been raped/abused as children/adults and feel worthless.ANd I have met 1 girl who said,"My boyfriend makes me do this to pay his bills and I want out".
I know this bcause I was a victim of physical abuse until I was 18. I work w these girls at the strip clubs/porn industry.I am not asking for pitty.ANd yes,I had other choices.I took them.Went to college,got my dental assisting degree,and am still dancing.The only reason I got into porn was for vengeance.To piss guys off that I was dating.If they broke up w me,I got back into porn.I know it killed them.I am immature and vengeful as hell.But I am self destructive and usually use my pussy to get back at ment that piss me off.
I do feel like..If I wasnt abused as a child/teen..I probably wouldnt be in this industry at all.I felt so low about myself.ANd the way my 1st relationship treated me,angered me so much,I wanted so bad for him to see me fuck other guys on film.Lucky for me,his friends found out and told them.I didnt say a word.That had to hurt/ruin his ego.
SO once again,I agree w u on many levels.Just know that Shelley is not out to hurt anyones feelings.She does alot of good.U may not agree.She saves women that had bad experiences in the biz.Have a good weekend.And I want to remind all of you..
SUPERBOWL SUNDAY is the #1 day of the most domestic violence against women cases.Thats just 1 of the resons why I hate it.Why,"Im trying to watch the game,if u dont leave me alone,Im gonna get angry".SO fuck SUper bowl sunday.The only good I get out of it is..More $ at the club.