So you borrowing over $275.00 from me and my business partner to cover the cost of your STD testing as well as a few other things that you needed so you could jet off to do your first shoot with Score. Only to have you make any attempt to pay me back in what over what 5 or 7 years makes you somehow professional? Likewise I care very little for your apologizes Stephanie when I know they aren't in anyway shape or form heartfelt. This is also why I don't buy the I am "clean" story your trying to sell the world on. Yeah you may of given up the kind of drugs you where back then. Yet odds good you are abusing something else these days.
Hell you say I don't know you, but like many of the people you suckered into feeling sorry for you in the past I now see you for the person you really are Stephanie. For at your core you are a thief and a childish liar. If that wasn't the case you would of paid back the money you borrowed back then. It just that simple. Likewise I did won't to come out and as the clerk if she was you, because part of me had a feeling that even if it had you I saw that day you never answer me honestly. Yes you would lie. Or you would play the role of the fool. Yet I know there no way you give me an honest reply. It is just not in your nature.
It like this "I was faking being asleep" story you just created.. It is a fabrication you cooked up to hide the fact you showed up to a shoot stoned, and passed out due to it. Or this "he proposed to me" BS you seem to like to tell people. Hell what I said back then was this "You should love yourself enough to hold out for a guy who honestly wants you in his life because you will get nothing of value from a string of meaningless relationship". Likewise I also remember stressing to you that a porn career may make finding Mr Right difficult. So you may want to think about that before doing adult films. I felt I had to say to you at the time because of the endless chain of suitcases pimp boyfriends you had tagging along with at the time. Now if you saw that as a me proposing to you then once again that kind of shows how unreal your view of reality is y dear.
Well that and if I really was this unprofessional villain you paint me out to be would I have paid speaking engagements on the topic boudoir photography? Likewise would your girl friend of made the choice to keep modeling for me off and on for almost 9 months after you quit? No.. Yet here you are putting your on spin what happen till your take on our working relationship becomes just one of many tall tales and fabrication you find yourself telling people to hide the kind of woman you are.
Finally I'm not here to make your life a living hell. Nor am I posting this to make your life a living hell. I do however feel the need to let people know the truth about you. I mean your not the devil.. Yet you are in no way someone that any of us should ever look up to due to how you treat people and the lies you tell. Hell you found yourself in divorce court because of all the lies you told your Ex husband. A guy who really is a quote unquote "Good Guy". Yet you saw fit to wrecked that for yourself. All, because you can not grow-up for just a second and face the reality that your lies hurt you the most. So with that I am done dealing with you. I wish you all the best, but I know you will find someway of using lies to cheat yourself out of happiness just so you can play the tragic hero when you tell your story to others.
@ ro'sf4l : If she did as you put it "make it to the big time" it has everything to with the work people like me put in the time and energy it took to getter her there, and not so rags to riches BS fantasy where she was a kind honest person who got what was coming to her due to how she treated others in the industry with whom she worked with. Thing is she didn't. Sure she could of, but you can only lie, cheat, and yes steal from so many people before they tell you to go waste someone else's time with your crap, because they are putting up with it anymore.
Which odds are better then good that's why she now retired from porn. Not because she out grew it, found Jesus, went back to school. made up her mind to be a better Mom, or 100 things she could cook up to present her leaving the industry as anything more then what it was. The part of the industry that deals with BBWs has in fact out grown models, actors, and other adult performers who are unable or just flat out unwilling to treat what they do as a business and not as a hobby. Which also means treating people with the proper amount of respect. So by not honoring agreement to pay people back, or falling short of living up to your obligations to a project you have agreed to work on.. Well you kind of show you're not one to be trusted. Which is what Stephanie aka Lola Lush did over the course of her short adult film career.
Now I'm not saying this to be rude or disrespectful to her. Or because I'm as you put it some frustrated wanna be photographer. Which side note I made around $28,000 after taxes last year doing this. Likewise I hold a Bachelors of Arts Degree from ASU. So if I'm anything it is a very successful photographer not some frustrated wanna be photographer like you suggest. Yet that right there is why I speaking up. For you see there are a lot of young women who for some unknown reason actually read the BS models like Stephanie post on sites like this and twitter and think doing stuff like getting shit face drunk before a shoot or getting so high a few hours before your wanted on set is 100% okay if not expected of you if you work in the adult industry. Yet bad new kids its not...
Like I said before I had the pleasure of working with over 37 adult performers such as Melody Nyte, Kerra Dawson, Rosie Paige, Selena Castro, Vicki Nicole, and Nikki Santana to name a few when I lived in Phoenix. Yet like I said before Lola left a lasting impression on all of us unlucky enough to work with her. Not because she was honestly that hot or that good of an adult actress. Oh no it was, because I have never in all my fifteen years of doing this had to work with someone who epitomized all the common misconceptions and stereotypes when it comes to quote unquote "Porn Stars". I mean she really did treat people like crap unless she needed something out of them. Worse yet she was highly unprofessional. For she treated what she was doing in the industry like it was some kind of a game. A game where the rules everyone else where conducting business under just didn't apply to her for some reason. Yet a game none the less.
Which is why once again I honestly hope she has left the industry, because she honestly is more trouble then she worth. Likewise I am just happy she didn't get herself or someone else she was with killed or infected with an STD due to all the shady deals, crazy ass parties, unprotected sex with a number of pot dealers who call Phoenix home, drugged filled benders that left her flat ass broke on two occasions that I later learned about once we terminated our working relationship with her, and all the other stupid ass shit she was pulling in her off hours.
For the media in Phoenix and in other parts of the world would of had a field day demonizing the industry if that would of taken place. For just like you they would of painted her out to be some helpless victim of the industry vs some self destructive, sociopathic, brat who wanted to have a good old time just at everyone else's expense. Which is honestly how I feel about Stephanie aka Lola Lush.
@ ro'sf4l: You know of so called " burger flippers " making around 2K to 5K a month take home after paying the cost of their medical insurance as well as both state and federal taxes? If so where? For I sure as hell don't.
@ LolaLush: I honestly hope you enjoy your retirement from porn. For the adult entertainment industry really is a far better and all around safer place with your crazy ass no longer being a part of.
So go have more kids, smoke more weed ,or do whatever the hell it is you're doing right now. For if it keeps you out of the industry as well as out of the lives of people I know, love and respect it's a beautiful thing.