People walk all over me. For whatever reason, people just love to trample all over me. I give and I give and I give on a constant basis. I give everybody everything that they need and so much more, and I don't even hesitate to do so. Whether it's a ride to work, $20 for groceries, friendly advice or emotional support, everyone who knows me knows that they can come to me for anything and they'll get it from me. I almost never, ever ask for anything in return, as I just want to be able to help people that I care about in their times of need.
Now, when one of those very, very rare moments comes along, where I do ask for something in return, I never, ever fucking get it. The second that I actually need somebody to be there for me, they act as if they're too busy or too important to deal with it. What the fuck?
I bend over backwards to give people what they need and I don't ever hesitate to do so. But, the one time that I'll ask for a tiny bit of support, it's as if I don't even exist.
Remember when your boyfriend broke up with you and devastated you? Remember how I stayed up with you, talking to you on the phone until 5AM for 2 weeks in a row, even though I had school every morning? Remember how I spent $600 to catch a flight back home so I could cheer you up and help you get over it? Remember how I, not once, expected anything in return for doing so?
Remember all of the rides I gave you and, not once, asked for gas money? Remember all of those times that I walked you home, just to make sure you got home safely? Remember how I was the only guy in your life who did such a thing, without trying to grope you, kiss you or get you into bed? Remember how many phone conversations we had, where you would bitch and moan about life and I would sit there and listen? Remember how lucky you said you were, to have a guy like me in your life?
Remember when I called you and left a message, saying that I needed to talk to you as soon as possible? Remember how that was in February and you still haven't called me back?
Seriously, is it so hard to pick up a fucking phone? Is it so hard to return just a little of the love and support that you get from me? For fuck's sake, the world doesn't revolve around you. Other people have problems too, you know. You're not the only one who cries, you selfish bitches.
I'm sick and tired of people who think that picking up a phone and listening for a minute is such a God damned chore. I'm sick and tired of people who act as if they love you and care about you, but when the time comes to prove it, they run away from you as fast as they can.
I guess I'm just sick and tired of caring. Why care about other people if they're never going to care about you? Sure, they say that they care, but...do they?
The answer: NO, they don't
Talk is cheap, especially when it comes to love. And, you bitches, you are the cheapest, most frugal pieces of shit that I have ever met in my life. Fuck you and everything about you. There is going to come a day where those shit-eating grins get wiped off of your faces and you're going to need somebody like me to make you smile again...only I won't be there.
I'll be here...relishing in your heartache.