I had to think of this for a while. I can't say I have a best quality. I guess I have a lot of good qualities. I try to be as honest as I can to others and myself because sometimes the worst person you can lie to is yourself. I would like to think I am dedicated, I don’t waiver from my core beliefs and principles. I like to think I am devoted. There are things I will choose death before doing or letting them be done to me, and there are things I would die for. I have a lot of willpower, whenever a hard choice comes up involving willpower I like to think there is nothing to it but to do it.
I’m reflective and try to think through why I feel the way I do, and to make sure it makes logical sense. I don’t want to believe in something just because it was what somebody else has tried to program within me. I try not to think form only a lot of points of view, but from every point of view. That doesn’t mean I will necessarily change what I think, but I try to get inside the other persons head. That might be from all the time I just sat back and watched how peopled behaved and the fact I always try to stay 10 steps ahead of everybody else. I try to have as much foresight as possible and think of what consequences my actions will have now, as short time from now and far into the future. However if a decision needs to be made quickly I have prepared myself as best as possible to make the right one quick. I can understand when no decision might be worse situation of all.
Some people might say I’m a little iconoclastic, but I’m not that way just for the sake of being an iconoclast. I just don’t think the reasoning that something should be done because it’s tradition or it’s the way it has always been done is good enough. However that absolutely doesn’t mean I will try to fix something that isn’t broken.
Even if I don’t show it, I do have a high amount of empathy with other people, however still doesn’t mean I will agree with them. I will use that to make sure my decision is the right one. I have the courage of my convictions and won’t back down from saying what I believe just because it might not be popular or others might be too timid to express their view in that situation. I have both a warm heart and a coolly logical side that I use to enhance each other; I don’t let emotions control the way I think. I think with my brain and love with my heart. I am impossible to anger to the point that I lose control. In fact I might become more controlled when I am angry.
A lot more things are black and white to me and I probably have less shades of gray than the average person. Even thought I might get sad I never get depressed. I try to overcome what is against me and not to let what is against me overcome me.
I can make the tough decisions if they have to be made. I believe that there isn’t more than one truth, that is why it is called the truth. I am weary when I think others are trying to manufacture the truth for me.
I try to do the best job I can do under the circumstances I am put under. In fact I probably go farther than I should when the people I am doing it for don’t deserve it. When I do a bad job, unlike a lot of other people today, when I should have done better, I am ashamed because it reflects poorly on my and maybe my family.
I can have both single-minded devotion and look at the big picture. I will never sacrifice my principles for convenience, or advantage, or some perceived short term gain. I don’t trample upon others for my own gain even if I don’t always help them, which is seldom that I am able to do so. I think others as human being have a certain lever of decency they should be given and certain rights that are inalienable and should never be taken away from them. While I think my way is the right way I don’t try to force my way onto others. I think everybody should be allowed to believe and do what they want as long as they don’t infringe upon others or me.
Some things that might not be good qualities to some people are the fact that I have a hard time trusting anybody fully. The only things I have ever fully trusted besides myself are my father and God, and my dad is getting old and is in the twilight of his life. Even other people it takes a long time to earn my trust. Trust is always earned to. It is very hard to get and very easy to loose. I don’t make friends easily because I take friendship very seriously. It isn’t just something I flaunt around. I believe a true friend is like part of my family and should be treated as such. Sometimes I focus of perfection and introspection so much I forget to have fun. I probably should have more fun, but that is something that has been significantly lowered on my life’s priority list because I didn’t consider it as important as other things and because of necessity. I get too annoyed when others make sloppy mistakes. I don’t like hypocrites and sometimes I will call them out on it when it might be best to keep my mouth shut in that situation. Sometimes I just need to let things go and not make an argument that isn’t necessary or that important even when I am right. I am a realist and sometimes don’t see as much hope that there is in the world as I should. I will assume the worse and prepare for the worse case scenario.
That is all I can think of for now.
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