The reason I am going to great lengths to prove this is me for real and not some scam is so you know that the person behind the pictures is a real person with real feelings. I understand that yall are fans but yall are fans of nothing. Scott paid me 200$ for the pictures which nothing close to the amount that it has now ruined my reputation. I hope that everyone is aware that something this small to yall might be huge to other people. Point being. I was denied a job because they have seen the pictures, i was denied room mates before i got married because they thought that i was an unreliable person due to those photos. When i took the photos for scott it was strickly for that website and that website alone. He never informed me the lengths he would go to market me on his site, which i think is very shady. There are other woman on the site and he chose me, one who already has a name (a bad name) I considered scott my friend and he went and betrayed our friendship by using me as bate to earn him money. I think that its fair that if he even considered using my photos seperatly, selling each set on their own that i should have at least gotten some profit for them. Modeling in real life, not ameture models, get a profit of everything the photographer or agency is to sell. For my reputation being compromised i dont think thats a lot to ask. My husband is a marine and these photos keep popping up. One of our old friends thought it would be funny to post a link of all the old photos and videos with Cosmid on his facebook because he got mad at me for telling the truth to their other friends, In turn, all the woman I am now associated with wont hang out with me, my husband friends now look at me in a different light. Its not a small price to pay for making one mistake , but to trust a friend and have it turn into another mistake is hurtful. I am trying to better my life, the photos you see by scott werent supposed to go postal , and quite frankly i am embarassed by them. I never wanted my boobs any where on the web after having my son because they are no where what they used to be and already cause me a great deal of emotional stress. I didnt mean to blow up on anyone but you have to understand the harassment I get from people i know and dont know alike. I cant even walk into the mall in my home down because i get harassed by people i went to school with. Its horrible. All I ask is that this stops. I appreciate the love of my photos and body but as i said before there will be no more. If any thing is to pop up its because scott still went and did his dead of ruining me even more. I have shed many tears of this and I am tired of being that girl in the spotlight. I am a respectful woman, Never been a cheater, or liar, or fraud. I am a loving wife and mother and i hate the fact my husband is now getting the bottom end of my actions in his own work environment. Think about it on our side. How would you feel if your wife was pushed out that way, and made a joke, or how would you feel if your daughter did something that you cant look at her the same for. As a result of these mistakes I no longer have a strong relationship with my mother, my old friends wont speak me, new ones already look at me different than they should before getting to know me, and my husband gets hell at work. Its not fair to my family to keep this going and I wish it never happend before. The ones who do know me (tara nad scott) know that I am sweet person and never want to hurt anyone but yet I am handing the hot end of the iron at everyturn. I hope this proves who I am, that I am real person, and this truely kills me.