If I understand the spirit of the OP properly and rather than "obsessively touch myself often to her work" it means "fall for because she looks so perfect and you'd just want to see her every day and marry her and walk down the street with her on your arm, stare lovingly at her for hours on end and spend the rest of your life thinking about how gorgeous she is" ....... hmm.... probably Stoya Doll. She makes my heart pound pretty damn hard. I'm a complete wreck for that porcelain doll look.