Imagine said:
In any case, it is unlikely you will be able to convince me I'm wrong. If what you are telling me is true, I doubt I can convince you. Nor does it matter. If you wish to continue, we can do so over PMs.
Just as long as you understand something: when I say it takes a brave person to end his or her own life, I don't say that like it's a good thing. I will not respect anyone less because they fear what they rightfully should fear. If anything, being brave (or stupid) enough to get yourself killed is something I would respect a person far less for than being afraid enough to live.
You feel, decide, and live however you feel you must, Imagine. Whatever makes you sleep better at night and keeps you warm on those long, cold, lonely nights; it makes no difference to me nor do I really care, truthfully. What
YOU choose to believe, think, or feel about
MY life or
MY experiences makes not a bit of difference to me. My life will most definitely go on whether or not you believe or disbelieve.
Life is too short to sit here wasting time on the back and forth with people who have absolutely no compassion nor empathy nor desire to help someone when they cry out for help. So, no ... I won't be discussing this issue with you via private messages. I have better things to do with my time.
As for this shitty little comment -
If what you are telling me is true, I doubt I can convince you - I won't voice my first instinctual thoughts about it, but I'm fairly positive you know exactly what I want to say to you and exactly on what level. I'm not going to reduce myself to that level, though ... you're not worth the effort.
What I
will say this is:
I know
exactly what kind of mind-numbing horrors I went through. Quite a few people whom I call
FRIENDS on this very Board know what I went through as well. I have no reticence, shame,
OR hesitations in talking about it. If I can help someone via my own experiences with thoughts of suicide, then I will do so time and again without question or fail. What I will
not do is accept some lame-ass reasoning that suicide is honorable and brave. In my opinion, thoughts of that nature are complete and utter bullshit and are indicative of someone who truly has no clue how precious and wonderful life can be.
Jizm ...
If you need a friend, I'm here. I'll help you as best as I can. KNow this, though, I won't indulge nor will I tolerate a self-indulgent pity-party. I've been there ... and I'm not going back to that. I refuse to take part in that. I turned my life around ... and I'll help you with whatever it takes for you to get back on your feet and get some help, bud.
I'm here if you need to talk someone. If you don't wanna talk, that's cool. Help is out there ...
YOU have to be the one to decide to reach out for it.
I'm gone, people ... I've said all I needed or wanted to say on this issue. :hatsoff: