Jizm said:
There is much strength and bravery in taking one's own life. Suicide is not a weak act. It requires focus on what's next, leaving whats done in the past, and moving forward - to the unknown. When you wake up in the morning, you have an idea what your going to face, but when you kill yourself, it's all unknown territory. If you knew something better was on the other side, I swear you would do it. But you don't. I don't need to hear you say it is a weak way out, and a form of giving up. Bull shit.
Jizm -
In cultures that do not view suicide or the taking of one's own life as a ritualistic or even, perhaps, a religious or ethical enlightenment, people will view it as distasteful, needless, selfish, and yes, even weak and cowardly. This is something that you must accept just as we accept - and worry - that you are even contemplating this idea.
Please, before you do
ANYTHING rash that
WILL leave behind turmoil, sadness, and just a whole lot of needless shit for your family, loved ones, and friends to deal with,
please seek professional assistance. There are a multitude of agencies with trained people - some who have even faced a similar situation as yours - who can help you and maybe make things a bit easier for you to cope with in life.
Killing yourself isn't the answer, man.
Trust me, two years ago I
was in the this same boat, Jizm.
I speak from hard, hard bitter experience. You know
ME well enough to know that I don't blow smoke up people's asses nor do I candy-coat the truth. A few people who have posted in this thread know my story and know exactly of what and why I speak and they can corrobate my story if you have any doubts whatsoever.
Hear me out, okay?
It may seem like an honorable thing to do in your eyes, perhaps you think it will give you that peace you've been searching for.
It doesn't.
What it
WILL bring is tragedy. The people who are left behind -
your family, your loved ones and friends - will have to bear the knowledge for the rest of their lives that you committed suicide; an act that can't be turned back or erased. They'll wonder what they could have done differently for you; how they could have reached out to you just one more time; why you chose to shut them out instead of talking to them. The people who love you - and yes, despite what you may think, believe and feel presently, there are people in your life who
CHERISH you beyond all compare - will blame themselves and grieve for many, many years. A great emptiness - a void, really - will be left in their lives.
Dude, there is
NOTHING in this life that can't be overcome with a little bit of help from your family and friends, but also from people who not only care, but are trained to lend assistance when needed. Please reach out ...
If you're interested in hearing more about what I went through, I welcome your inquiry. Just send me a private message and I'll be happy to sit here and talk to you and help you in any way I can, man. If you need information, I can get that for you as well. Don't ever think you're alone ... because you're not. I know life can be fucked-up and full of shit. I
KNOW -
goddamn, do I know - how it feels to have everything come crashing down on you and suffocate you; choking off all feelings of hope and promise. I know how it feels to be a failure ... everything I ever attempted to do previously always fucked up on me - failed relationships, lousy fucking jobs, one fucking debt right after another.
Trust me, we've all been through this shit at one time or another. Some of us make it through without a scratch, while others of us have scars as reminders of our journey and our turmoil. What matters is that we made it through.
If you need to vent or you just need someone to listen, send me a p.m., man
Don't throw away the most precious gift we have:
LIFE.