Ry it's alright, you can tell us. It's pretty obvious, we can all see it. You would love to have Mr Pattinson's penis inside your lubed anus, isn't that right?
That's fine, I'm sure we could have accepted that if you had just come out directly and told us. All this faux "hate" is a dead give away, you love this man with a passion you've never felt for another man in your entire life and your scared of what these feelings mean, we've all been there my friend they go away with time as you finally come to find true acceptance of what you are and aren't worried about what society might think. I don't know about anyone else but I find this entire tirade tremendously sweet on your behalf. Denial won't bring you anything but pain and misery - my advice to you would be to find that voice deep down inside you that knows what's right and listen to it. Robert's man meat is what you desire - give into this, otherwise it'll eat you up inside. So much so that you'll never be contented in whatever you do. It's the only way you'll find true salvation in this life, no guru, god or woman will ever come close because the truth which you have tried to bury for so long is finally starting to find its way back up through the soil and no matter how many times you try to bury it again, it'll find its way back up and believe me, this is a good thing.
Buy some of his posters put them up around your house, copy his hairstyle and overall constipated muppet look, drug him at a Hollywood club and take him back to your hotel room. Only then will you be able to know love like you've never known it before.