Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues....

[Teddy X]

Beacuse the city I live in (Monroe), women got attitude problems and they think there divaz, but not (Average Women think they better than anybody..sad) And im try to get out of here and move to Atlanta to start a rap/video game/ or porno career. Cuz women here in Monroe are mostly stanks who got bad attitude and I feel like (sometime) I dont feel appreciated at all. And im ready to start all over again and mos def loose some weight cuz im bout 300 poundz..



And add 2 that, I dont like conflict at all and I got a passive aggresive behavior. I dont have a car (been without a car for a while), been out of work for a year and collect SSI money(My friends dont know about that...keep it a secret). And I think is something wrong with my brain also due to my slow reaction and comprehension (I be in my own fantasy world and I feel like I wanta change a lot of thing in the society). Sometimes I just dont wanta be in Monroe(small town) period and wanta go to another city If I have money or not. I feel mad and depressed on the inside, im 28 years living on this earth. I dont even approach these females in my city anymore.(Rather have someone from out-of-town....) And I need to find something that I could get paid online also to get the fuck up out of this hell hole. And A lot of people wanta me to stay in Monroe, but me, not for long. People aound here think they more of a man than me, but I know a lot of shit that niggaz dont know about, but they wanta amoged me(Men And manly Women....like when I start to make a convesation, they hear me but think I dont exist!!) cuz im diffrent. Thats sad....So I needp help...A.S.A.P.


But I will a.s.a.p.even If I have to go postal on somebody and or leaving everthing behind and start from zero(No Money going inot another city..start hustling..) and work my way to becoming legend. Cause its too many haters and big ego niggaz tryin to get over people in Monroe. Anit no love for da city, no love... I will....

Im takin my chances...

 

[STDiva]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Do what you gotta do. A change of scenery can change your entire life. Not necessarily for the better though.

 

[biomech]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Check out Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now.
This guy suffered through severe depression and suicidal tendancies, his stuff is powerful; rather than focusing on the past or mistakes made.
Look to the future, become a better you.
I know it sounds corny; but he made a major difference in my life and how I look at things.

 

[Skyraider22]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Do what you gotta do. A change of scenery can change your entire life. Not necessarily for the better though.

Agreed that is what you need.Fresh Start Good Luck Playaimpdaddy

 

[Magnet]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

have been living in shreveport, LA for the past 4 years and ready to get the fuck out.

I plan on moving to Kansas or Vegas with in the next few months.

 

[24788]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Lets roll together. Life is boring around here.

 

[feller469]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

hell, ya'll thinking 2 small. I got word there's a Planet X coming by in 2012 and only the mofo's who are at the Devil's tower in Wyoming on the winter solstice will be able to hitch a ride up to the new world.

See you bitches there or nice knowing ya. Peace out

 

[Alyssa Rose]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

I totally feel you. I felt that way my WHOLE life. When I was 17 I decided I was gonna make it happen so I worked three jobs and saved half of every paycheck and I used all of my tax return the next year and I moved out 3 days after my 18th birthday. I called an apartment complex paid my rent 3 months ahead of time and hopped a plane from San Diego CA to Louisville KY I also called and set up 7 interviews with different companies out there and by the 2nd week of being there I had 2 jobs. If I hadn't done that I wouldn't be where I am today....Married and living in Korea. So I'm all for it! Do it! Don't let anything or anyone hold you back! Put yourself first and make it happen! Good Luck! (P.S. I recommend Louisville KY as its not a small town so there's jobs available and you can also find pretty decent priced apartments.)

 

[Lust]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

i hear ya Teddy, never been to Monroe, but I've been in places with similar women...big fish / little pond and over inflated sense of importance.

Atlanta is cool and has LOTS of super hot women, plus it may be a great place to start your career. sometimes just a change of scene is all it takes to get that state of mind in the right place. because of my job i've had to move to a lot of different places in the past. at first it was intimidating, my first move was to NYC, it seemed like a bad move immediately, but then i got my groove and since then every move has been pretty cool and i have lots of friends scattered all over the place now.

as far as the monroe scene, "aint none of them better than you", and if they think they are then they arent worth your time. good luck if you head out to Atlanta.

 

[jod0565]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Good luck on your move but I suggest you don't become a hustler because there's no real future in that.
Self esteem issues? Lose some wieght, get a real job and be inpressive by being self sufficient and being yourself.
Again good luck Teddy X.

 

[Teddy X]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Thankz everybody, and one news....I finaly got me a car (Mazda 626)!

Just need to get money now....Fa Realz......

Still Improving....No Doubt....

 

[JordanRules]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Go for it Teddy! And good luck to you. I wish you well.

 

[Big Poppa Pump]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Good luck with that Teddy. I personally think a change of city would be good for you. It's a shame some folks in your town are up themselves, but that's their problem, not yours. It's a big world out there.

Good Luck man. :hatsoff:

 

[busenbust]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Extremely brave of you to seek a new direction in your life; takes a lot of courage to just up sticks like that. Best of luck to you, and let us know how you get on! :thumbsup:

 

[Teddy X]

Re: Need to get out of my city and move to a bigger location and self esteem issues..

Update....

I went to the hospital 2 nights ago (from 5-11 p.m.) due to my brain feeling stress (Getting into it with moms, people talking bad about me in da city, have thoughtz of killing people, and a lot of thingz....). They gave me some Depression pills(Hydroxyzine and Sertraline) to take. One in da morning and one at night, But I cant drink no alcohol when Im on these pills. So no more drinkin for me for a good minute. And now I just took one not long ago and im feeling ok. But its gonna be aright, its just people around Monroe thats negative . Fa realz, Im mos def need to move out A.S.A.P.