JaanaRuutu
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First, I just want to apologize to everyone for being so MIA these öast two months. After what I went through at the end of June, I just needed some Jaana time. During that time, I decided that it's best that I partially retire from this line of work. i say partially because I plan to still do independent private shows, as well as film one or two clips per month. However, I will not be appearing on Streamate, MFC, or Niteflirt, and I will not be actively updating my website or other related websites.
There are a number of factors for why I've made this descision, the biggest being how little any of my "fans" cared after the end of June. I only received a handful of e-mails and messages from fans. Cam girls, site owners, and others involved in the industry supported me and sent me some of the sweetest, most encouraging letters I've ever received - but the people who watch and enjoy my work, who would constantly tell me how they loved me and my work, hardly said a word. Throughout July I posted about how much as a hard time I was having, and almost no one reached out to me, or even bought clips or cam shows. That feeling of being replaceable really hurt, and it really jaded me about being in this business. Girls can raise $10,000 in weeks for implants or vacations, but I can't raise $480 to pay my rent while I wait for therapy to start? I busted my ass for the first 5 months of this year performing and filming so my fans would always have something new and unique to watch from me, but suddenly my life is in shambles and no one is around to help me pick up the pieces. What hurt the most was when some people actually accused me of using donations to "bail out" my ex, even though there was no bail, and surprise surprise, I haven't seen him since that night.
I'm sorry of this sounds whiney, but it's how I feel. And this isn't directed at anyone on Freeones specifically, more the people who follow me on social media and who constantly send me messages on Skype and cam sites. FO has always been great to me, so please don't think this is about you guys.
I've been doing this for almost 3 years and I guess it's just time to slowly start to move on.
There are a number of factors for why I've made this descision, the biggest being how little any of my "fans" cared after the end of June. I only received a handful of e-mails and messages from fans. Cam girls, site owners, and others involved in the industry supported me and sent me some of the sweetest, most encouraging letters I've ever received - but the people who watch and enjoy my work, who would constantly tell me how they loved me and my work, hardly said a word. Throughout July I posted about how much as a hard time I was having, and almost no one reached out to me, or even bought clips or cam shows. That feeling of being replaceable really hurt, and it really jaded me about being in this business. Girls can raise $10,000 in weeks for implants or vacations, but I can't raise $480 to pay my rent while I wait for therapy to start? I busted my ass for the first 5 months of this year performing and filming so my fans would always have something new and unique to watch from me, but suddenly my life is in shambles and no one is around to help me pick up the pieces. What hurt the most was when some people actually accused me of using donations to "bail out" my ex, even though there was no bail, and surprise surprise, I haven't seen him since that night.
I'm sorry of this sounds whiney, but it's how I feel. And this isn't directed at anyone on Freeones specifically, more the people who follow me on social media and who constantly send me messages on Skype and cam sites. FO has always been great to me, so please don't think this is about you guys.
I've been doing this for almost 3 years and I guess it's just time to slowly start to move on.
