Good luck in your quest to find your own spirituality. If it brings you inner peace, that's a good thing. As for me, Islam doesn't get it but if it works for you, go for it.
As far as masturbation is concerned, I figure that God (if indeed there is one) would have put my cock in the middle of my back if he didn't want me to play with it. He didn't, hence, I play with it. Besides, it's fun!
Just don't blow yourself up in a crowded marketplace or fly any planes into buildings, OK?