Trust me brutha I've been there. I know it hurts more than anything to lose people we love. although life goes on, its a fucked up part of life that we all have to deal with @ some point, sometimes more than we care too, the only thing you can do is remember all the good times you had with those people that moved on, you can't blame yourself for what happened to them, it was there time, for whatever fucked up reason, you can't dwell on the pain or it will eat away your mental stability within, death lives amongst us, but we have to survive it or we are a slave to death itself as well.
You have to know you can survive & flourish in your loved one's memories, do you think they'd want you to quit living cuz they are not amongst us any longer? NO they'd want you to have a great life & make them proud of you, they'll be your angels, they'll be watching over you & your loved ones. Live your life brutha. You only have one, you make the best of it, you love your family & friends, be the best you can be & thats your legacy, to be the best you can possibly be while your alive & living on this roller coaster of life. cuz theres up & downs, highs & lows, good & bad, happy & sad....etc..
I know death is the hardest thing to deal with in life, but don't let it take you as well, don't you do anything stupid BEAR. You have people who love you just as much as you did for your dad & friend, so don't hurt them, they need you in this time of grief, if you do anything stupid you could traumatize all the people that love you, cuz they are already dealing with your dad & your friends departure. you will be alright brutha. be strong & think about all your other loved ones that LOVE you, depend on & care about you... you can PM me anytime you need to talk..
Hang in there Brutha Bear.. stay with us, stay amongst your family, stay close to them & take comfort in there company & love. also take comfort in knowing your in all of your FREEONES FRIENDS prayers as well, take care & be well.. & I absolutely expect to hear from you again. you have to many people that love you for you to go and do anything to hurt yourself. :angels::angels::hatsoff: