I'd like this thread to be for true masturbation enthusiasts. There are lots of masturbation threads on the board: How Often/Who Made You Cum Today/etc., etc. But I want this thread to be for real aficionados of the art of self-abuse. People for whom loving one's self isn't just an occasional diversion but a real, important part of your life, a hobby, a passion.
Talk about what it means to you, how it fits into your life, unique aspects of your masturbatory life, how it affects your relations with others, etc. and so forth. Talk about society's attitudes about it. For me, my daily jerk off sessions are a serious passtime like golf is for other guys. I have a strong urge to share my passion with others, but it's not exactly something you can bring up in polite conversation and I know there are other guys and gals who know what I mean, so let's hear about it.
I'll start: I have for years had recurring dreams about masturbating in front of people. I don't mean in an exhibitionist way, exactly, as these don't really feel like sex dreams and it doesn't really seem like I'm getting aroused by them. In the dream I'm in room with some random person I know, and I just happen to be be masturbating. Sometimes it's a person that I have an attraction to, and sometimes not. We might be carrying on a conversation, or they might be doing something else, but I'm openly stroking my cock and they don't seem to be be acknowledging that in the slightest. It's not clear whether they do or don't notice what I'm doing, they just aren't reacting to it at all. There's not really any indication that I want them to interact with me sexually. It's just an everyday scene where I happen to be beating off. In the dream there's a vague undercurrent of realization that I shouldn't be doing that in front of them, but it never rises to the level to make me stop it. Only when I feel like I'm about to cum do I get the strong sense that I need to leave the room or stop so that I don't ejaculate in front of them. I can't tell if it's because I think that might finally make them notice what I'm doing, or if it seems like it would just be too rude to blow my load in front of them. And usually then the dream ends.
Now, while I'm not a flasher or anything, I get off masturbating in front of someone as a part of sex. But this doesn't feel like that kind of situation. There's no sense that I want them to see me stroking, just that I'm nonchalantly doing it right there with them. I'm sure it has something to do with not wanting to hide that I masturbate and wanting people to accept it. Any other amateur Freud's want to weigh in?
