Anyone else find their fetishes disturbing?

[QueenyLover]

I'm developing a hang-up over this, thought maybe I'd see if anyone else has experienced something similar.

I really love oral sex, and it's my preferred type of porn. Originally my oral fetish was facials, so I mostly watched Peter North as well as Amateur Allure (due to the consistent high quality attractiveness of the ladies on there).

However, I've really gotten into the extreme deepthroat gagging via catching clips of sites like Throated, Youngthroats, FacialAbuse. With the clips it was fine, but as I started watching full scenes, I find them both really repelling yet utterly arousing. A good, if extreme, example is Youngthroats. The pacing is so slow and the narrator/camera guy so creepy that you can't escape how grueling it is for the girls, especially with one of my favorites ("Debi"), who seems less willing as it goes on and more regretting this.

Having said that, seeing a really beautiful and petite woman getting brutally throat-fucked still gives drives me wild. The streaks of mascara, the gobs of saliva, the loud wet sucking and gagging, the strings of saliva in her hair and hanging from her mouth to the cock, and even the moments where they have to catch their breath, it just gets my engine revving.

Yet, I feel very dirty for it. Not in the good way of seeing a dirty girl enjoy anal or whatever, but in the same way as when I start to think about the possible % of porn that contains unwilling women (i.e. trafficked women from Eastern Europe, fex).

I'm not trying to say that porn is bad or whatever, so don't misread me, nor am I unaware of the argument that they agreed to the job and could have quit at any time. But you do hear about girls who get in knowing only "traditional" porn and have never heard of gonzo and end up overwhelmed and getting out scarred for life by it, and it just seems creepy for me to still be aroused when there's a nagging voice in the back of my mind questioning it.

I guess it wouldn't be so bad, but I've never had that kind of extreme bj in real life. Facials, yes, deepthroated, yes, but nothing that extreme, so it's not like I have the real-life experience of seeing a woman enjoy this (or at least willingly do it).

I dunno, I wish I could state this better, it's just been bugging me.

 

[Marlo Manson]

To be honest I like watching all that stuff as well, as brutal as it is, yes sometimes I can't believe that, that kind of stuff would turn me on, I DON'T like nor can I stand watching a girl "THROWING UP" that repulses me and as long as it doesn't get to that point, everything you mentioned doesn't bother me, infact all of it excites me, Yet I would NEVER do that to a girl myself, but somehow knowing its porn and I am sure the girls know what they are in for and that's what the girls wanted and signed the contract to consent too all the happenings that take place, in my eyes she consented to it all, that is, and as long as she is not forced to perform and can quit @ anytime she wants, I am not bothered by watching it.

Yes I could prolly be classified as a Sick Fuck, and I am sure that's what many of "YOU" who are reading this are thinking, and maybe your right, but I think your more than likely wrong, simply because I am not committing any crimes, nor am I breaking any laws by watching it, and I can't help if it, and what turns me on. I am just human. :dunno:

 

[meesterperfect]

i hate that gurgle sound they do in so many flicks these days.
its annoying, not hot, and kills my mood.

 

[The Grasshopper]

I wonder how far I could go with my gas mask fetish. I believe I am only a novice. :o

 

[spryter]

I don't worry about these things. I know the things that turn me on are fucked up. I wouldn't even deny that it turned me on if asked in person.

 

[crazylegs77]

the only fetish find disturbing is a foot fetish.....how anybody could enjoy a part of a body that touches the ground,street,dirty sand, sweaty shoes, is beyond me....and rex ryan has made it even more disgusting....

 

[L3ggy]

To be honest I like watching all that stuff as well, as brutal as it is, yes sometimes I can't believe that, that kind of stuff would turn me on, I DON'T like nor can I stand watching a girl "THROWING UP" that repulses me and as long as it doesn't get to that point, everything you mentioned doesn't bother me, infact all of it excites me, Yet I would NEVER do that to a girl myself, but somehow knowing its porn and I am sure the girls know what they are in for and that's what the girls wanted and signed the contract to consent too all the happenings that take place, in my eyes she consented to it all, that is, and as long as she is not forced to perform and can quit @ anytime she wants, I am not bothered by watching it.

Yes I could prolly be classified as a Sick Fuck, and I am sure that's what many of "YOU" who are reading this are thinking, and maybe your right, but I think your more than likely wrong, simply because I am not committing any crimes, nor am I breaking any laws by watching it, and I can't help if it, and what turns me on. I am just human. :dunno:

You SICK FUCK! :wave2:

 

[BlueBalls]

I have been known in the past to enjoy the sensation of hanging upside down from my bedroom ceiling elevated only by the 50 fish hooks embedded deeply into the flesh of my scrotum that are attached to the extra strength fishing line I have suspended from my ceiling, while being mercilessly beaten about my face and chest with a 14" black dildo.

It has to be black you see because I have certain racial misgivings that I am in desperate need of remedying.

 

[L3ggy]

Only you, man, only you!

 

[sexmadwife]

Only when I'm completely sober.

 

[QueenyLover]

the only fetish find disturbing is a foot fetish.....how anybody could enjoy a part of a body that touches the ground,street,dirty sand, sweaty shoes, is beyond me....and rex ryan has made it even more disgusting....

I used to be indifferent to foot fetishes, but ironically sites like Youngthroats where they have the girls holding onto their feet/ankles (thus exposing the feet more) has certainly made me see why some people get into that. Yes feet can get dirty, but then so too can vaginas, anuses, or mouths.

Like I said, never been my fetish, but at the same time I've kissed a clean soft foot or two. Some women do seem to really enjoy it, although it seems too ticklish for most.

To Marlo Manson, I agree with your basic sentiment. I guess where this becomes an issue with me is for a couple reasons:

1. You hear more and more about the sex slavery driving prostitution, especially in Europe and SE Asia, and it doesn't seem a far leap to think that the same gangs have found a way to use these women to make money in pornography. I know it could be any genre, not just the "extreme" or gonzo stuff, but it can be difficult (at least for me) to see a woman who appears to clearly not be enjoying her experience and feel like she's being forced or coerced into it.

2. I wish I could find this, but a long time ago (I think a few years after Jeffrey Dahmer), there was a documentary on how serial killers are "formed" (compared to other types of killers, like spree killers or such). The research team that the doc focused on had found a lot of similarities in most killers, but then discovered an odd case of a serial rapist/killer who didn't have any of the background sexual/family/social trauma present in most serial killers, he just seemed to randomly start raping girls when he was 17 or 18.

Long story short, they discovered that at puberty, when he couldn't find his dad's playboys, he used 'true crime' magazines as masturbation material, because they do use pretty women on their covers. The researchers discovered that this guy had unwittingly conditioned himself to be aroused by women showing fear (because most of the model pics in such magazines are of women crime victims, usually tied up or on their knees, submissive and showing fear). When he tried to have sex for the first time, he couldn't stay hard and the girl mocked him, out of embarrassment/frustration he struck her, she showed fear, voila he's hard and in desperation rapes her in order to finally lose his virginity.

Point being, it worries me if enjoying this type of porn may somehow warp me into eventually wanting to do such things in real life. It hasn't yet, but then as I said I've only recently gotten into that type of blowjob porn. I know it's a completely random, arbitrary line of thinking, but still it bothers me.

 

[Marlo Manson]

Its a proven fact that There are allot of characteristics that we all have and share in common with Serial Rapists / Killers, we often have the same traits, urges, delusional thoughts and fantasies as Serial Rapists / Killers do, the difference between them and us, is we have and use our sense of reality and self conscious and we know when and where to draw the line between reality and fantasy and we naturally realize were about to cross a very serious line if we choose to ignore our sense of right and wrong, Those Monsters as we call them, lose all sense of reality and in the meantime they also lose there compass of whats right and wrong and they follow those twisted urges, and therefore progress into Killers and Rapists etc..

I often fantasize what it would be like to be a Serial Killer. :elaugh: but, I am not goin to PRISON for anybody or anything so that alone snaps me back to reality!! lol.. Serial Rapists / Killers simply have no conscious unlike normal folks. :2 cents:

 

[hanso91]

My fetish sort of disturbs me too, so I know what you're saying.

I like the look of fake boobs, which is fairly common fetish, but I also find that natural boobs are actually a turn-off. I prefer the big, firm, and round appearance of breast implants and what it says about the girl that has them. Sometimes if I see an attractive but flat-chested girl, I'll imagine how great she'd look with fake tits and that helps me appreciate her. I realize it's messed up to prefer something so artificial, but it sure is a turn-on for me.