Turns out...

[Galactic]

...my ex may have been right. Two and a half years have gone by...she's married now, and living in a different state...and I'm still here, still a fucking child. Not self deprecating here...really friends and neighbors, I have thrown myself off of my throne....this could be the end...the end of the illusion and lying to myself, of blaming others...everyone but myself...I just re-read emails back and forth that we sent to each other...it's been years...I was a total fucktard.

I hated myself then. I hate myself even more now. Let the hate commence my friends.

 

[Hypergalaxy]

Live and learn, at least you are man enough now to admit your mistakes.

 

[PirateKing]

Drunk again? Words are great and all, but old habits die hard.

 

[squallumz]

i hate myself too. so what?

at least you're not homeless, says nikki.

pfft!

 

[Galactic]

Drunk again? Words are great and all, but old habits die hard.

I miss my zaya...your questions about my sobriety are meaningless...really, I wish I could just fucking fade away against the backdrop...so you, my friend, can eat your "old habits"...

 

[Facetious]

...but marriage carries with it great responsibility... life's just too plain short for that.


But seriously, what's holding you back from your pursuit of other women, do you think you have to carry this burden on your back for life?

 

[Galactic]

...but marriage carries with it great responsibility... life's just too plain short for that.


But seriously, what's holding you back from your pursuit of other women, do you think you have to carry this burden on your back for life?

Just can't seem to move past it. I have this block. Not looking for pity, believe me. Just can't seem to shake this heavy creepy feeling that she may have been it...and after re-reading what I just read in the emails, I'm sure I acted like a kid.

But...nothing new...I might be 35 in years, but in actuality, I'm 18 at best at heart.

 

[squallumz]

i feel perpetually 16 on any given day.

this isnt a bad thing, its a blessing.

 

[El Perro Mayor]

You need to get out of your funk. Go out, meet more women, people meet and break-up every day. Our lives are what we make of it, for the most part at least. I have a brother that also likes to blame others for his problems. Wants to make it in music, first he would say being married was holding him back from his full potential, then when she left him he said he was too depressed and unmotivated. Now he's 36 and blames his age, says he's too old now to make it. Life is not easy, you get out of it what you put in it, be it work, relationships, studies etc etc...

 

[PirateKing]

Just can't seem to move past it. I have this block. Not looking for pity, believe me. Just can't seem to shake this heavy creepy feeling that she may have been it...and after re-reading what I just read in the emails, I'm sure I acted like a kid.

But...nothing new...I might be 35 in years, but in actuality, I'm 18 at best at heart.

You put yourself in a pointless position by moping about it. She won't regress back to you so the only thing to do is move on, maybe improve yourself and find your own happiness. There's no such thing as "the one". You just feel a strong connection to her but who's to say another woman can't make you feel that way, especially if you change your outlook. Maturing may be just what you need to fall out of love with her, ironically.

 

[xfire]

...my ex may have been right. Two and a half years have gone by...she's married now, and living in a different state...and I'm still here, still a fucking child. Not self deprecating here...really friends and neighbors, I have thrown myself off of my throne....this could be the end...the end of the illusion and lying to myself, of blaming others...everyone but myself...I just re-read emails back and forth that we sent to each other...it's been years...I was a total fucktard.

I hated myself then. I hate myself even more now. Let the hate commence my friends.

Is she really that great? Time makes the heart forget all the shit. There are reasons you acted the way you did, and since we are talking about women, I suspect they were pretty well justified. Like Rockerx said, live and learn, you'll treat the one you're meant to be with better because of it.

 

[Facetious]

Live brotha, just live! You're situation isn't all that unique.
Read some self help literature, it's everywhere, you can beat this ''block'', AKA: a treatable form of depression.

 

[zeeblofowl_1969]

Life's hard then you die.

 

[PirateKing]

Life's hard then you die.

Then you come back as a zombie and party it up cannibal style!

 

[LukeEl]

Pick yourself back up man. We do not tolerate failure on this board, everyday we do our best and piss excellence!

 

[Tittyman5000]

Suck a fat cock, become a prostitute and get your crack addiction going you sik fuk! Sell stem cells on the black market, & eat baby kittens every meal, trust me you'll feel much better Just kidding If you dwell in the past the future will be bleak

 

[DJCowboy]

I have thrown myself off of my throne....

Must think pretty highly of yourself if you imagined you were on a throne to begin with.

Not saying that to be a dick but that line certainly stood out

 

[Deepcover]

Well at least you don't plan on committing suicide like the last guy on here......

 

[Sam Fisher]

Galactic, it's spring time in the Rockies. There's so much to be thankful for. You're single (you can do as you want without asking anyone.) Hey, baseball is underway! The weather is going to be fantastic for the next seven months. Go to some Rockies' games. Enjoy yourself and your FREEDOM!!! Do things that YOU want to do.

So You Might have fucked up... who hasn't? Be glad you're shed of her. She certainly isn't looking over her shoulder wondering why she remarried and moved away. But above all else....

DO NOT GROVEL. Especially to her, whether it is on the phone, email, or whatever. DO NOT FUCKING GROVEL!


Here Bud... watch this 30 second clip.

 

[alexpnz]

Shut the fuck up and man up.

lol this guy.