Same story as "I need to get it out" but slightly different

[luvheels]

I just read the thread on the "I need to get it out" and i can say that fits me to a "T". But the problem is that im not a people person, i don't have hobbies outside of porn, and my friends are jack asses. I dont even have a job, because my friend got me fired!!! I told my friends to fuck off last night because they make me feel like **** even more, when im with them. Everytime i try talking to people i cant articulate what i want to say, i think i might be retarted. I have community service i have to do every day thorough out the week. I get so pissed off because it was but wasn't my fault. I was fired because i had porn at school. I hid it well but my "friend" ratted me out, and now pretends it wasn't his fault. This *** never and i mean never has had anything bad happen to him, his gf just falls in his lap, has a nice car, has an alienware laptop, this fuck flaunts his money around like mad. I brought this up around my friends and of course, they sided with the rich fucker. I dont mind him except he thinks he's fucking god himself. What really ***** me is that i have no gf ever in my 19years of this shitty world. I would love to **** myself, if i could find an easy and painless way to do it. I swear i have something go wrong in my life everyday, i try to be in a good mood but that never happens. I honestly can say that there isn't anything i look forward to when i get up.