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sputnikgirl
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Sometimes I get worried that, due to my boyfriend working around several college students, he'll decide that I'm not good enough anymore. I'm 23, but I don't think I can compete w/ 18 year olds. It's not that I think I'm horribly unattractive, it's that I'm not much of an ego-stroker, I'm not naive/innocent, and I'm not unintelligent....which is what I've found that some men need to feel good about themselves (from previous experience of being dumped for someone less intelligent and younger than myself).
I also find that I have problems socializing with others my own age (my boyfriend is 39). I tend to stay away from males that I feel I would be attracted to, and don't even pursue a friendship, for fear that it will turn into something more. My attraction to women poses a whole other set of problems. I think I'm sexually frustrated, as far as women go, because I keep having recurring dreams about sex with female friends, old girlfriends, etc. Sometimes I think it may not even be sexual, and I just need a good female friend or two, that I can trust.
However, I have trust issues with all women...because I've been cheated on, and had an ex boyfriend stolen by a friend. I feel like I couldn't bring them around my boyfriend, or else awful things will happen.
I have no idea how to approach the topic of women w/ my boyfriend. I know I'm definitely not a lesbian, and probably bisexual, but I'm worried the frustration will never go away if I don't have sex w/ another woman. I don't want to cheat on him, or hurt his feelings, but I can't deny my own feelings.
Any words of wisdom or advice?
I also find that I have problems socializing with others my own age (my boyfriend is 39). I tend to stay away from males that I feel I would be attracted to, and don't even pursue a friendship, for fear that it will turn into something more. My attraction to women poses a whole other set of problems. I think I'm sexually frustrated, as far as women go, because I keep having recurring dreams about sex with female friends, old girlfriends, etc. Sometimes I think it may not even be sexual, and I just need a good female friend or two, that I can trust.
However, I have trust issues with all women...because I've been cheated on, and had an ex boyfriend stolen by a friend. I feel like I couldn't bring them around my boyfriend, or else awful things will happen.
I have no idea how to approach the topic of women w/ my boyfriend. I know I'm definitely not a lesbian, and probably bisexual, but I'm worried the frustration will never go away if I don't have sex w/ another woman. I don't want to cheat on him, or hurt his feelings, but I can't deny my own feelings.
Any words of wisdom or advice?
