This year has been amazing, i finished my contract with clubjenna, and went back to school to do my BA in human services. I also got a job at a rehab for drugs and alcohol abuse as a tech. I loved that job, but had to leave due to a small relapse with my own drinking problem. This was due to being over stretched, i had no time with school, working in the industry, and at a rehab as well as feature dancing to get to aa meetings and fellowship, i just was not working a program. And the envitable happened, i drank.
I have been in the industry since 2003, and it has been awesome, there was up's and downs, like in any job, but i have nothing but good things to say for the right to porno.
However, as i approach 27 years old and am pursuing a career in the therapy field, as well as hoping to one day start a family of my own, i must close the door on porn life, and become a 'citizen'.
i hope to retire in August 2009. But with a mortgage in London and school fees, as well as my own rent here in LA, i am dubious that this dream will materialise.
I have lived in LA for over 3 years now, permanently, but my family all still live in London, this is where i own my house. I bought this house 4 years ago for my parents, because we have always lived in the worst neighborhood in LOndon, in The East end, and drugs were prevalent, my little brother who is 2 yrs younger tahn me, has been battling a heroin addiction since he was 14 yrs old. Four years ago a drug dealer who was owed money by my brother came and tried to rob my parents at their flower shop, i stabbed him, and was arrested, he didnt press charges and i left for LA for a few months. In the mean time, that crack head began blackmailing my parents, but they had little money, and after oming back twice in 2 weeks and getting about a thousand pounds, my parents were forced to close down the flower shop.
I felt guilty, when i found out from my sister, and began shooting anal, i saved up all my money and bought them a house in a nice area on the otherside of London.
Since then i have had no real choice but to stay in porn in order to make enough money to pay the mortgage, since as my parents could not afford to pay a mortgage in london, its expensive, i pay $3000 a month. which along with my tutuition fees for school which are $1500 every 5 weeks, and my rent, bills, expenses etc, i have a high monthly outgoing!!!
How am i possibly going to manage when i retire with only a normal wage, $14 ph as a tech?
i tell you guys all this, and bare my history, because if you can doi anything to help me get out of this situation, then i would appreciate it very much.
I still owe 'one hundred and fifty thousand pounds' on my mortgage despite paying off money towards the capital for the last 4 years.
if you can help send any donations to 14431 ventura blvd 129, sherman oaks, CA, 90049
God bless all who help me, anything welcome, no donation too small.
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