Face Slapped After Being Cummed/Jacked-Off On
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I started in the porn industry back in 2003 when I was 19. It started with me doing a little nude modeling here and there, then it progressed into internet work and then I met an "agent". It all went downhill from there. The money was great for a 19 year old! But I didn't enjoy being on set and feeling degraded.
I loved the attention from everyone but now that I look back, that's not the kind of attention I deserved. But, I was young, naive, motivated by the money and the "fame". It was easy for an agent to take advantage of me, and many did.
Over the course of my porn career I have been belittled and treated like a piece of trash more than I could have ever imagined in a lifetime I would. I wasn't a woman in any of these directors eyes, I was nothing to them. The male talent at times were nice, but sometimes, they were horrible. I've had men choke me, slap me, thrust me so hard until I couldn't walk and this would happen even after I would tell them to stop. They have no respect for women.
There were always drugs and we would binge on Ecstasy, Cocaine, Marijuana, Valium, Vicodin and alcohol. I thank God I am even still here! I also did "escorting" in the porn industry for agencies where we were sent to Las Vegas to do "privates". I also know agents who lie to the girls and tell them they are shooting a scene when instead they set up prostitution acts for them.
I have cried and screamed and almost lost it at times because of this horrible industry. I have now been on Lexapro since January because I dropped to 85 lbs and it was from all the stress and anxiety from this business. I am now back up to 103 lbs and feeling better, but it's going to be a long time until I fully recover. It sucks you in and is hard to get out, but once you do it... it's the greatest feeling ever. Although it's an extremely difficult and uphill battle, I know I'll be okay. The industry is infected with drugs and disease. I have had multiple tests come back positive for Chlamydia and gonorrhea and I'm living with hpv (genital warts) for the rest of my life. My so-called friends and ex introduced me to a variety of drugs and we were on a 6 month binge. All my money went to partying and my car got repoed, I got evicted, had run-ins with the police, almost lost my contract and lost touch with my family. I almost always had to be "messed up" on set to get through it. I look back and it makes me sick because that is not the person my dad raised me to be.
I am so grateful for my son because I got pregnant and that's what made me stop partying! I was in a relationship with a Kris Slater who is also in the industry and I thought everything was great until he started getting really controlling and abusing me. He would choke me, throw me around and verbally abuse me. I thought things would get better but it continued for 3 years. I had him arrested twice and the second time, this last February was the last time I was ever going to let him do that again. He threw chairs at our son and I was not going to let anything happen to him. There is now a restraining order and I have temporary full custody and am going to fight until the end for my son to have a loving and peaceful upbringing.
My worst scene I have ever been through was the one I did when I was pregnant. That is going to be the hardest thing for me to get over. It makes me so mad that the father of my baby and ex Kris Slater would even support that and let me do it. He should have been a man and helped out!
Although, I'm very angry and hurt, I am finally learning to love again and let someone into my life after being numb for so long. When I was shooting I was blocking all emotion and it was effecting my personal relationships with everyone. I had no "real" sex life and was showed no affection because I was used to doing the motions of something fake.
I don't know how I got to the point of doing porn. I was a bright girl growing up. I joined the military at 17 (got out on a medical discharge) went on to attend college and had high expectations for myself. It's never too late to do that stuff and change my life around and now is the time. I have to be a great mother for my son and be a good influence to him. I want him to look up to me and be proud. I am so grateful for Shelley and the Pink Cross Foundation
for reaching out to me and helping me better myself. Shelley has been reaching out to me and giving me hope for some time now and I'm now strong enough to stand up and say, "I'm done with this horrible industry!" Thank you Shelley and the Pink Cross Foundation for loving me and seeing me as the great woman I am.
-Amanda
formerly pornstar Erin Moore
For those who think porn industry is respectful...
I started in the porn industry back in 2003 when I was 19. It started with me doing a little nude modeling here and there, then it progressed into internet work and then I met an "agent". It all went downhill from there. The money was great for a 19 year old! But I didn't enjoy being on set and feeling degraded.
I loved the attention from everyone but now that I look back, that's not the kind of attention I deserved. But, I was young, naive, motivated by the money and the "fame". It was easy for an agent to take advantage of me, and many did.
Over the course of my porn career I have been belittled and treated like a piece of trash more than I could have ever imagined in a lifetime I would. I wasn't a woman in any of these directors eyes, I was nothing to them. The male talent at times were nice, but sometimes, they were horrible. I've had men choke me, slap me, thrust me so hard until I couldn't walk and this would happen even after I would tell them to stop. They have no respect for women.
There were always drugs and we would binge on Ecstasy, Cocaine, Marijuana, Valium, Vicodin and alcohol. I thank God I am even still here! I also did "escorting" in the porn industry for agencies where we were sent to Las Vegas to do "privates". I also know agents who lie to the girls and tell them they are shooting a scene when instead they set up prostitution acts for them.
I have cried and screamed and almost lost it at times because of this horrible industry. I have now been on Lexapro since January because I dropped to 85 lbs and it was from all the stress and anxiety from this business. I am now back up to 103 lbs and feeling better, but it's going to be a long time until I fully recover. It sucks you in and is hard to get out, but once you do it... it's the greatest feeling ever. Although it's an extremely difficult and uphill battle, I know I'll be okay. The industry is infected with drugs and disease. I have had multiple tests come back positive for Chlamydia and gonorrhea and I'm living with hpv (genital warts) for the rest of my life. My so-called friends and ex introduced me to a variety of drugs and we were on a 6 month binge. All my money went to partying and my car got repoed, I got evicted, had run-ins with the police, almost lost my contract and lost touch with my family. I almost always had to be "messed up" on set to get through it. I look back and it makes me sick because that is not the person my dad raised me to be.
I am so grateful for my son because I got pregnant and that's what made me stop partying! I was in a relationship with a Kris Slater who is also in the industry and I thought everything was great until he started getting really controlling and abusing me. He would choke me, throw me around and verbally abuse me. I thought things would get better but it continued for 3 years. I had him arrested twice and the second time, this last February was the last time I was ever going to let him do that again. He threw chairs at our son and I was not going to let anything happen to him. There is now a restraining order and I have temporary full custody and am going to fight until the end for my son to have a loving and peaceful upbringing.
My worst scene I have ever been through was the one I did when I was pregnant. That is going to be the hardest thing for me to get over. It makes me so mad that the father of my baby and ex Kris Slater would even support that and let me do it. He should have been a man and helped out!
Although, I'm very angry and hurt, I am finally learning to love again and let someone into my life after being numb for so long. When I was shooting I was blocking all emotion and it was effecting my personal relationships with everyone. I had no "real" sex life and was showed no affection because I was used to doing the motions of something fake.
I don't know how I got to the point of doing porn. I was a bright girl growing up. I joined the military at 17 (got out on a medical discharge) went on to attend college and had high expectations for myself. It's never too late to do that stuff and change my life around and now is the time. I have to be a great mother for my son and be a good influence to him. I want him to look up to me and be proud. I am so grateful for Shelley and the Pink Cross Foundation
for reaching out to me and helping me better myself. Shelley has been reaching out to me and giving me hope for some time now and I'm now strong enough to stand up and say, "I'm done with this horrible industry!" Thank you Shelley and the Pink Cross Foundation for loving me and seeing me as the great woman I am.
-Amanda
formerly pornstar Erin Moore
For those who think porn industry is respectful...
Okay dude, first of all, thanks for making me flaccid. Also, get lost. Seriously, if this is not your thing, why the fuck bother sticking you fucking head in here? Man, I was trying to fap and here comes Mr. I'm Perusing Freeones For Porn But I Still Have Time Between Strokes To Tell These Guys About How One Pornstar Felt Degraded And Quit The Industry. Seriously dude... let me bate and get the fuck lost... seriously...
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What's the idea of dumping all that here, Bravado? Why this thread? Why this board? We all have our problems and I can tell ya there are people who have been thru a lot more shit than that... and that's why they're here; to escape the shit for a while. Don't you get it? You seem like someone who is STILL on drugs. Bye!
Va ailleurs! On a nos propres conneries à vivre pis on est ici pour s'amuser. Décalisse!
Keep 'em slappin'!!! Hard! Very hard!
What's the idea of dumping all that here, Bravado? Why this thread? Why this board? We all have our problems and I can tell ya there are people who have been thru a lot more shit than that... and that's why they're here; to escape the shit for a while. Don't you get it? You seem like someone who is STILL on drugs. Bye!
Va ailleurs! On a nos propres conneries à vivre pis on est ici pour s'amuser. Décalisse!
Keep 'em slappin'!!! Hard! Very hard!
bravado what the hell, go somewhere else, you choose the wrong thread
Waaahhh poor me, I made millions of dollars for six hours of work and I had to exert myself for it, bou hou hou
I thought I was just going to be a porn star and all the guys were going to caress me fondly and treat me like a beautiful princess! How dare those bastards!
I feel for you, Diomedes but it's the porn industry evolving a little quick to keep up to it. Maybe you should update your moral values. Go ahead take a good big blast in the mouth and let a hard smack empty it out.
Take it this way, at least you won't have to swallow it! :1orglaugh
Say goodbye to Bravado. I think he's leaving now.
Fuck that girl. There was not one day that she could not have said "I quit". If you feels that bad about it, how about giving back some of the tens of thousands of dollars you got paid for greasing up your holes and laying on your back? If anyone had said to her "hey, doing a multiple interracial scene while heavily pregnant might not be a good idea" she would have said "fuck off, don't tell me what to do". I guarantee it. We all fuck up and we all make bad decisions; it's just that she has the her time in the porn biz to conveniently blame every one of her failings on.
As for "I've had men choke me, slap me, thrust me so hard until I couldn't walk"..... well that's the only time this girl has given me a boner.
If they wouldn't stop when told, then go to the law and have them charged. If not, shut the hell up.Fuck all this shit, back to the slappin! Will find some good stuff soon.
